“And hope does not put us to shame,
because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit,
who has been given to us.”1
In Jim Cymbala’s book, Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire,
there is the story of a woman named Roberta Langella. A story she tells in her
own words. At the age of 16, she left a broken home to move to New York City where
she began living with a man twice her age. A man that got her into IV drug
abuse through heroin and cocaine. One night after shooting up, her boyfriend
thought she had died. He took off, leaving her on a rooftop where someone
discovered her and called 911. The paramedics revived her.
Her
feelings of worthlessness led her to one destructive, physically abusive, and
drug-centered live-in relationship after another. She began going to
underground clubs where she would shoot up and share needles with 20-30 people
at a time. Eventually she and her latest boyfriend were out of money, out of
food, the utilities had been turned off, and they were selling their furniture
to finance their drug habit.
Faced
with this impossible situation, she called her mother back in Florida, who let
her move down, and got her into Narcotics Anonymous where she kicked the drug
habit and soared with newfound confidence.
But
then " everything came crashing down. A visit to the doctor unveiled a horrible
fact. She was HIV positive.
After
2 years of being clean, she returned to cocaine with a vengeance. Wanting the
drugs like never before. After a week-long cocaine binge, she was truly at the
end. Faced with an impossible situation. HIV positive. No money. No love
relationship.
Years
prior, she had happened to meet a woman in her apartment building who attended
Brooklyn Tabernacle. And for some reason, that Tuesday night with nowhere else
to turn, she showed up at that church and went to the altar shedding tears she
couldn’t stop. “God, I need you in my life. Help me please!”
That
night her life was changed. God gave hope when there seemed to be no way out.
Even
though she was sick, she led a ministry at Brooklyn Tabernacle called, “New
Beginnings," a weekly outreach to drug abusers. God used her life and her
mistakes for good--bringing hope to others who have none.2
I am sure that, like us, Roberta’s life was a
mixture of ups and downs. No one is perfect, and as mentioned before, we all
have those sins with which we struggle. However, one thing to remember is that,
just like God changes the seasons, he is ready to change us and help us begin a
new season in our lives. A season of hope, transformation, and a personal
relationship with Him that will bring the growth we long to see in ourselves.
Suggested prayer: Dear God, time and time again,
both in my life and in the lives of others, I have seen your great grace abound.
We falter, make mistakes, and stray, yet you love us and welcome us back into
your arms every time. Change my heart and allow this season of my life to be where
I choose to submit to your will. Use my mistakes as a testimony to others of
how you use broken and ordinary people to be part of your perfect plan. Thank
you for hearing and answering my prayer. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Romans 5:5 (NIV).
Jim Cymbala’s book, Fresh Wind,
Fresh Fire.